I have the prison inside me': The emaciated Palestinian bodybuilder broken by Israel
Before the Israeli army arrested him late last year, Abayat was a big, confident man. An amateur bodybuilder, he weighed 109kg, all muscle. After nine months in Israeli prisons, the Palestinian has lost more than half his body weight.
This is another grim, horrifying story from Israel’s war on Gaza.
Yet, Muazzaz Abayat has never been to Gaza. He was born and raised in the West Bank city of Bethlehem, where he worked as a butcher until Israeli forces smashed their way into his home at 2.30am on 26 October.
No charges were brought against Abayat during the nearly nine months he was kept in Israeli prisons. He was held under administrative detention, allowing a prisoner to be detained at the discretion of the local military commander without any charges being levelled.
HaMoked, an Israel-based human rights group, reports that more than 3,500 of the 9,000 Palestinians currently locked up in Israeli prisons are held under administrative detention. Many, like Muazzaz Abayat, are from the West Bank. Since the Hamas-led attack of 7 October, this number has risen sharply.
Abayat told Middle East Eye that throughout his stay in jail, he was beaten, abused, tortured, starved and deprived of water. He said that his case was not an exceptional one. Every other Palestinian prisoner faces similar abuse.
Footage of Muazzaz Abayat’s stumbling departure from prison, his back bent, his arms bruised and crooked, has gone viral on Arab social media channels.
However, there has been little or no interest in western media. Middle East Eye was the first western media organisation to interview the 39-year-old following his release.
Back in Bethlehem
We found him in a hospital in his native Bethlehem, where he is embarking on a long journey of recovery. His brother, Ahmed, was with him.
There was no flesh on his body, just skin and bone. The veins and muscles jutted out of his neck. The trauma of the past nine months was etched on his face.
Abayat was beaten so regularly, so brutally and by so many different people in prison that he now sees everyone as a potential threat. His first words to us were: “I have not been beaten for the three days since I left jail. I was told that I was not going to be beaten in this hospital.”
Speaking slowly but fluently, he warned us that he could not recall his life before Israeli soldiers arrested him: “I can’t get the prison out of my head and can’t remember. I am still living in the prison. I have the prison inside me.”
Medics told us they are still trying to understand his condition.
While prison is all too vivid to him, his family life is a blur. His brother told us that Abayat doesn’t recognise his father, even though he visits every day.
His wife, Noor, and mother, Mona, both collapsed to the ground when they saw their broken husband and son hobbling out of jail.
Abayat said he was in bed with his four young children (Noor was pregnant with their fifth child) when Israeli forces smashed their way into his family home.
“I asked why. They said that I am a murderer. I asked: ‘Who did I kill? You have broken into the house of a peaceful man with his wife and children and accused him of being a murderer.’”
Abayat told MEE that he would never forget what happened next. Pointing his finger at his temple, he said: “I remember all the details. It is all here in my head.”
The soldiers took him to the military investigation centre at the nearby Israeli settlement of Gush Etzion. There, they manacled his hands with iron chains, placed a blindfold over his eyes and removed his clothes.
“They beat me while I was naked. They hit my left eye with an iron bar. I fell to the floor and lost consciousness until they threw cold water over me,” he said.
Over the following weeks, the military moved Abayat from base to base, subjecting him to more beatings at each station. As far as he could tell, there was no serious motive for the beatings inflicted on him. It was simply revenge for 7 October meted out to all Palestinians.
One day in particular sticks in his mind: “4 December was the day they broke my body, a huge crack.”
“They put me in a small chair and covered my eyes. My legs and arms were chained behind my back. A group of men attacked me and delivered a monstrous beating.”
Abayat said he was interviewed by an officer from Shin Bet, Israel’s internal intelligence service, who asked him: “Are you with us or with them?”
He recalls answering: “I am with no one. I am a Palestinian resident. You took a peaceful man from his house. I challenge all of Israel: did I have a weapon? Did they arrest me when I was shooting them? I was sleeping with my little kids between my babies and my pregnant wife.”
After the interrogation, the beatings resumed. “They put me in a bag. They broke my legs,” Abayat said, pulling back the bed cover to show the scars.
He remembered being placed in a van filled with what he calls “poison gas” until he passed out.
The Negev prison
The worst was yet to come. “All that I have described so far was a drop in the ocean compared to the prison in the Negev,” he said.
In the depths of winter, on 7 December, Abayat says he was taken to the notorious desert prison about 10km east of Israel’s border with Egypt.
“The moment you arrive there, they take off your clothes. They allow you just a T-shirt and trousers. There are no undergarments. The weather there is freezing. It is especially cold at night,” Abayat said.
During the day, a prison cell of 10 to a dozen men would share a litre bottle of water. There was one meal a day, and the food was so repulsive that inmates were often afraid to eat it for fear of becoming ill.
Speaking to MEE in April, Youssef Srour, a Palestinian prisoner in Negev, described the same conditions. Srour said they were assaulted four times a week and fed once a day “so we wouldn’t die”.
The prisoners were held in such close proximity that there was an epidemic of scabies. Only once during his approximately six months in jail was Abayat permitted to take a shower.
He spoke with special fear of guards who wore a green uniform and used broomsticks to “push us around like animals” while referring to the prisoners as “sons of pigs”. Abayat said that during some beatings, Israeli guards used security equipment to hit prisoners in their private.
He recalls one prisoner, Abu Asab, being left to die in a cell near his.
“They beat him to death and left him to die.”
Like other Palestinians who have been detained there, Abayat compared the Negev prison to the notorious US facilities at Guantanamo Bay and Abu Ghraib, where prisoners were tortured and abused.
Throughout this time, the father from Bethlehem was cut off from the world. He had no contact with his family, who learned what little they could about his condition from released prisoners. No lawyer represented him.
According to Abdullah al-Zaghari, the president of the Palestinian Prisoners Society, access to Israeli prisons for human rights organisations, including the Red Cross, is restricted, meaning that “there is no information about the situation of prisoners”.
He told MEE: “There are hundreds of prisoners in the same situation as Muazzaz.” Middle East Eye has written to the Israeli Prison Service, asking it to respond to the allegations detailed in this article.
'The same abuse and torture'
Abayat insists that there was nothing unusual about his treatment. “Every prisoner arrested after 7 October was exposed to the same abuse and torture. I challenge the international press to track down one prisoner who was not tortured in the way I was,” he said.
Before we left his hospital bedside, we asked Abayat if he had a message for the world.
His answer surprised us: “We do not want you to free us from occupation. We want you to, at the very least, support our people.
“I am asking you to look at the condition of the Palestinian prisons. The country they call Israel is killing and torturing prisoners. There are horrible discoveries to be made.”
Looking terrified as he spoke, he expressed disbelief that “peaceful people with no power can be starved, tortured and killed” in the 21st century, with no protection, legal representation or international outrage.
Abayat’s account of his nine nightmare months in Israeli detention is entirely consistent with other reports emerging from the West Bank and Gaza. There are many other images of emaciated Palestinians hobbling out of Israeli jails, shadows of their former selves.
Abayat’s confinement is not an isolated story. His agony is shared by hundreds, if not thousands, of forgotten Palestinian prisoners who still languish in Israeli jails today.
